Over analyzing about, "Where will I be in a year" is not a healthy habit. Set a plan; put it into motion. Day by day -- breath by breath. Once you have a vision in motion it makes living so much simpler. It's filled w/ action and excitement rather than anxiousness and worry. When you're living day to day in correspondence w/ a, "Vision in Motion" it feels like a new age Zen.
Moment by moment.
I set a goal of $10,000 @ $2/$5. I'm $1,700 away. At one point last session I was more than likely there; and lost it back. No big deal.
Short term goals consist of:
Pay off all out-standing CC debt as it's blocking up both conscious and subconscious thoughts. Do not constantly be thinking about how you can grab $12,000 via plastic. Having a bankroll is BORROWING FROM YOURSELF. I got laxadazical a bit this year once I arrived into Las Vegas. This happened due to my lack of passion for the game; and also my lack of motivation to earn. I invested in a select group of people; and put to much trust on others... again. Do not forgot how difficult it is to create a stack of $10,000... when you do not have $10,000 to risk. Do not take for granted while making, "Small" investments just how much day to day grind goes into it.
In the future -- when I invest a $10,000 chunk -- the project will be handled by me and I will RESEARCH RESEARCH RESEARCH every last spectrum of whatever it is that I am investing into.
Time is my most valuable commodity. Money is a way of calculating that.
I need to BALANCE my work and leisure -- and I also need to take care of my body better.
After poker journal ticks over to +$10,000 what is the next goal?
Put together pocket money for FL -- but also start putting together a, "Take shot fund". When those amazing Las Vegas big games go -- I have to be in there. THAT'S WHAT I PLAY FOR. How good am I? Why have I never, "Gone for it". I've lost $10,000 - $20,000 plenty of times now -- but NEVER in the thing that acquired the money in the first place. (Not saying I want to lose...) just absolutely silly how I never even give myself a chance. Not saying be filled w/ greed -- simply saying have excess money to , "Poker gamble with" when the game arises. I'll be fresh, ready with a box full of chips ready to attack that fucking game.
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Hourly is important. Though from this moment forward there is no way to truly predict what the next 40-100 hours of poker will provide. Just STAY IN THE MOMENT. WHEN FEELING ANXIOUS GET UP AND TAKE A WALK -- REMEMBER IT'S JUST ONE LONG GAME -- DO NOT FEEL SELF-PITY FOR YOURSELF OR GET UPSET AND GIVE TIME / CHIPS / HARD WORK AWAY.
BE A PROFESSIONAL CARD PLAYER -- ACT THE PART.
TAKE YOUR BEATS IN STRIDE BECAUSE YOU KNOW THE MONEY IS COMING BACK.
DO NOT PLAY SCARED -- NOT USING THE LANGUAGE OF BETTING AGGRESSION CAUSES HIGHER VARIANCE AS IT PUTS ME INTO MORE DIFFICULT SITUATIONS -- AND I GET SUCKED OUT ON!
Do not be a pussy! If the chips are on the table they are IN PLAY!
After hour 12 of last session -- how on point was I, really? I've got set over set so much the last few months that I forgot just how valuable a set truly is. Checking back my set when the Ace high turn to lower variance etc. is just God Awful.
Why didn't I break down his range? He could have had JJ, QQ, KK also. Not to add all the SC he could hold (he ended up having K/6s) and I gave him a huge free draw costing me another bet on the river and a $1,000+ pot.
Dumb.
