Down-Swing

UP DOWN UP DOWN UP DOWN.

On around a 400-500bb down-swing. Pretty standard. Got it in bad with AA on a K64 board against 64. Got it in with AK with the K of diamonds on a A/2/3 two-diamond board when opposition held J/9dd for a stone diamond for a 300bb pot and came out on the wrong end.

Lost a huge one on a Q/3/4 two spade board where opponent called off 600bb with 2/3s and a 8x bb pre-flop raise where we got it all in on the flop and she rivered a straight.

blah blah.

Frustrated.

Tilted off a few hundred.  Got angry. Told a few people to go fuck themselves.

Been hiding in my house for 3 days.

Un-healthy life style.

Need balance.

Swings just part of it. Just stinks when it all happens in sync. Things change.

Up-Swing + things to work on

Pouring in hours. Rather than think about how many hours to play; or whether I should quit while up or down a certain amount -- I just play until I can barely keep my eyes open .. or until the games overall VPIP is down and then I get out of there. That way I don't have to feel guilty for not giving it my all. As long as I leave the card-room every day feeling as though I fought my heart out ... that's all a guy can do.

Things to work on / analyze:

**Am I over-limping from the SB/BB in straddled pots? When should I be limp/raising? What sort of range should I be limp/calling? Should I be limp/folding/trying to sneak in with a larger variety of hands? Am I over folding? Am I not opening enough from these positions during a straddle?

**How much am I costing myself chasing high hands? How much more equity do I have in hands such as KJs + broadway suited cards when the high hand is $1,000 - $2,000? When does it become profitable to play these hands differently? Or does it?

**I need to make some poker t-shirts. Few that come to mind are: "Panda" w/ a 5/2o as it's become a local legend of a hand and I know I could sell dozens of them and get a laugh. Also -- "Your mom staked me". silly shit that I could sport and make a few bucks here and there and tap into my creative side. 

All in all things are going well. Was up 1k or so last night; been bendering on Saturday nights w/ a little Addy after 10+ hours. Was playing on house monies and played a monster pot with AQo on a Q/4/5s board against a lady with 2/3s where we got all the money in on the flop when a Euro dood bet into met $60 after it went $60x5 or 6 ways pre. I just slaughtered $500 AI on flop and she overcalled with a loan straight draw on a two-tone board! She spiked a river A and it gave me Top Two ... so it stung a little bit as I thought I was scooping the 300bb pot or so. Oh well. Sooner or later will have that break through night of $2,000 -- $5,000; just have to keep plugging at it and putting myself into money making situations.

I'm paying down CC debt. I'm investing in the market and re-building my portfolio. 

Want to make sure I'm not falling for, "recency bias" when it comes to poker / losing hands. Places where this applies to me is when I"m not hitting sets or over folding mediocre hands such as A/10o and A/Jo.  Need to do some work w/ these hands. 

Grind grind grind grind. Win win win win. 

LETS GOOOOOOOOO

Down-Swing.

Lost my last 5 or 6 sessions.

So hungry to play -- not a lot of time to post.

Compounded mistakes by

1) Taking to many days off after losing
2) Sitting to deep once un-stuck 300bb and then losing a monster pot with to many chips on the table.


Lost a big one with QQ vs the over weight middle-aged lady. I told myself, "I will quit when she goes broke/leaves" and she stung me.

Straddled pot. Limps. I get QQ pop it to $70. She flats OOP and we take a flop of 10/4/2 two-tone she checks I fire off $100 and change. She calls.

Turn 8o she checks I fire $225 she slams ALL IN for $521 more. I earnestly didn't think she was capable of doing this with a combo draw but it's not completely impossible. I also knew she was a bit tilted so she could have a hand like A/10 with the flush draw. 10/8 was more feasible and then I have equity. I called. Was rooting for a river 2. River: 2.

She shows me 4/4 for a flopped set. Unfortunate that we were that deep. I mini tilted off $400-$500 back and ran out of there. *sigh*

Cold cards and anxiety as of late.

Lost a double stacked pot to Steven oakley sun glasses extremely brash always calling me names guy when I turned a set of 77s on a wet board and he peeled my pot sized bet with the bottom straight draw w/ two flush draws out there on the turn and binked an off suit river card for all the monies. What can ya do? JUST CONTINUE TO PLAY WELL AND GET THE MONEY IN WITH EQUITY

My house needs a new roof.
My AC is breaking.
My car is breaking down.
I'm short on mortgage money.
I haven't taken a vacation in a very long time.
I was finding it difficult to put hours in.

Here's the thing : it's all good.

All I need to do is put my head down and pour in the hours. I am so much better than these players. What's most important is that I DO NOT ALLOW MY ANGER TO TAKE OVER ME. Don't be a piece of shit.

Take walks.

Breath.

Don't call people names while losing / winning / simply don't be a bully.

Kill people with kindness At least do your best.

It's all good.

It's all good.

It's all good.

Don't allow emotions to control thought.

Make solid decisions.

Don't play scared.

Go south when to much money on the table.

Don't allow your ego to take over. It's ok to sit with 100bb's and grind. The money needs to be in your bank right now not on the green felt.

Win. Win. Win. Win.  Play two or three sessions a day. Be a casino rat. Destroy these kids!